HIPAA

First of all, did my last post look weird? The photo set-up looks good in Google Chrome and Firefox but weird in Internet Explorer. Maybe I have too many internet browsers. 

Also, I'm very psyched by my FIVE followers!!!

Anyway, a little complaint: I saw an endocrinologist (well, two of them technically - the attending and the fellow) a few months ago. I liked the attending (mostly because she said "you'll have children" in such a straight-forward way) but I'm irritated at the fellow. When he called to give me my follow-up information, he scared the crap out of me. I was referred to a million (ok, three) other doctors and now I feel like my days off are spent making appointments and getting inconclusive results and MORE BLOODWORK. 

When I was at the appointment, the fellow mentioned that his wife was a resident and was surprised that I didn't know her name (it was uncommon - trust me, if I knew her, I'd remember). Well, I met her on Sunday and I said that she must be married to this guy. Her response surprised me - she said "oh yeah, he told me about you! I was wondering if we would meet!"...whaaaaaaaaaaaaaat? He told her about me? Isn't that a HIPAA violation? 

I'm hoping/assuming that he just mentioned that he cared for a co-worker and didn't use any patient identifiers. 

But maybe she'll convince him that I don't have any mental deficits (yup, I've been asked this at EVERY recent appointment). 

Am I only applying to grad school to prove my intelligence to my new physicians? :)  

Conversations

In the last year or so of kidmaking (ahem, better terminology than "TTC" or "babymaking"), I've realized who I can go to when I'm having a meltdown kind of day. Mostly it's been friends who have gone through something similar or who have kids and realize how awesome/priceless it is. Or they are just good/compassionate friends and know how to listen.

ANYWAY, yay for awesome friends...now I want to complain:

When someone tells you they know exactly how you feel regarding your past history of kidmaking, there is a fair chance that they do know. For example, I know I can call my friend B on a bad day and just sob and sob and share all these terrible emotions and she'll be like "yeah, that's totally normal and yeah, it sucks".

But when my friend tells me that she knows exactly how I felt during my terrible ultrasound because she went through a similar thing (but not at all similar), I kind of want to shout "no, you have NO idea how I feel now or how I felt that day or that week. You have a toddler and another healthy one on the way". But I don't because I don't feel like getting into it. But no, you really don't know what I'm going through or how I feel.

Oh hello Ms Blog - are you here for my venting pleasure? Why thank you. Also, I just deleted a TON of this post because it was too detailed. Am I editing my blog already?

Oh also I came up with this theory recently (and I've already shared it with two of my fantastic five readers): just because an emotion is irrational doesn't mean it's not REAL. You could be sitting over there crying about your hangnail...if it makes you sad, then IT IS SAD.

Also, my five readers are 3 women and 2 men - let's be honest, the men aren't reading it. M because he has already forgotten the site name and A because he's getting all of his calories from an IV right now. So really I should stop saying that I have five readers; it's really three.