Conversations

In the last year or so of kidmaking (ahem, better terminology than "TTC" or "babymaking"), I've realized who I can go to when I'm having a meltdown kind of day. Mostly it's been friends who have gone through something similar or who have kids and realize how awesome/priceless it is. Or they are just good/compassionate friends and know how to listen.

ANYWAY, yay for awesome friends...now I want to complain:

When someone tells you they know exactly how you feel regarding your past history of kidmaking, there is a fair chance that they do know. For example, I know I can call my friend B on a bad day and just sob and sob and share all these terrible emotions and she'll be like "yeah, that's totally normal and yeah, it sucks".

But when my friend tells me that she knows exactly how I felt during my terrible ultrasound because she went through a similar thing (but not at all similar), I kind of want to shout "no, you have NO idea how I feel now or how I felt that day or that week. You have a toddler and another healthy one on the way". But I don't because I don't feel like getting into it. But no, you really don't know what I'm going through or how I feel.

Oh hello Ms Blog - are you here for my venting pleasure? Why thank you. Also, I just deleted a TON of this post because it was too detailed. Am I editing my blog already?

Oh also I came up with this theory recently (and I've already shared it with two of my fantastic five readers): just because an emotion is irrational doesn't mean it's not REAL. You could be sitting over there crying about your hangnail...if it makes you sad, then IT IS SAD.

Also, my five readers are 3 women and 2 men - let's be honest, the men aren't reading it. M because he has already forgotten the site name and A because he's getting all of his calories from an IV right now. So really I should stop saying that I have five readers; it's really three.